Squirrels

Sitting in class talking about screenplays right now...

Yesterday we found three baby squirrels in our front yard. They were so tiny and cute and the mother seemed nowhere to be found. Two of them were hopping around and climbing up trees, but the third was tired and weak. My mother put it in a box and I took care of it all day. Gave it a bath and pedialyte and kept it warm, and then at the end of the day found a rehabilitator to take care of it. I have such respect for these people who do this. They get swamped with wild animals because nobody wants to take care of them. I called local vets and they wouldn't see it, I called the police and they said if they picked it up that they would destroy it...I practically hung up on them. So now the squirrel is in good hands and being taken care of, and hopefully should be released in the next few weeks. A few weeks ago a pigeon landed on our front steps with a badly hurt wing. I took that in as well and called this same rehabilitator who took it in and bandaged the wing. She said it is starting to heal up and eventually will be released.

I love being able to help animals but I don't know what's up with them all showing up on my doorstep. It's sad for me to see them hurt, and I always end up wondering/worrying if they're going to make it. I'm a dork.

Lethargy

I'm feeling so crappy lately...not crappy like sick (although I was last week) or depressed or anything like that....but maybe just disappointed in myself. I don't want to do anything anymore! At all! I get like this every year with school....but it seems every semester this "not wanting to go to classes" attitude starts earlier and earlier. I think this semester I started bailing in mid-February...particularly with my Chemistry class. But Chemistry...in college? Come on, that's rubbish. I'm worried though, it's not just school anymore, it's basically everything. I don't even feel like going to my internship lately, even though I love it, because I loathe the commute into the city. I just feel like I'm doing the same thing everyday, seeing the same things everyday, and I'm tired of it. I want to start the next part of my life already. I want to graduate college. I want to go to Europe. I want to meet new people. I'm...bored.

Last night I dropped one of my classes. It was a TV class that normally would be interesting and even entertaining, not to mention an easy A. But...I was messing myself up in the class. I never went. The professor I was supposed to have got a writing job in Hollywood and so there he went. I was stuck with a new professor who didn't know what he was doing, and a class full of morons. I'm sorry, that's harsh - I'm in a mood. But really, the class was terrible. Still, I should have been going to it.

So basically, at this point in time I think I pretty much suck at life. No, no - really. I'm the laziest person I know, and I keep thinking when the good stuff starts happening in my life that I'll change. But...I have to change to make the good stuff start happening! I'm 23 but I still feel like a kid a lot of the time. Maybe it's just because I'm still in college and I still live with my mom. A big part of me can't wait to move out, but then the other (childish) part doesn't want to do that because that means I'll have to get a job -- and it would probably end up beig a job I hated. A 9-5, never have time for myself, terrible boss, boring job. Wake up me, time to face reality. I guess I can't get to that next part of my life if I'm avoiding to make the jump.

And also, days are just going by too fast. I feel like as soon as I wake up I'm going to sleep already. Hate that. I think once this semester is over and summer comes, and my vacation comes...then I'll be a much happier camper. (But when fall comes, I'll be just as lazy all over again. Blah.)

Anyway, I'm just frustrated and needed to rant. :o/

Babies and backaches

Went to my sister's baby shower yesterday. She's in the picture with me. The day was fun...but ugh, my mom got drunk! And wow, that was not fun. I don't think I've ever seen her drunk before...it was pretty embarassing.

Woke up this morning with a terrible backache, like a stiff neck only in between my shoulder blades. Ouch. I think it's time to get some new pillows, and eventually a new bed.

PS - Jealous of all you boys and girls that got to go to the Who convention. Sounds like it was a blast!